i hate this so much !

i really do i cant stand the feeling inside of me 

i feel so used 

so angry 

sad

and very little happiness

i cant even talk about it to you because 

i dont know why i just refuse to even try to talk to you

i dont even want to talk to my best friend about it any more  

because i feel like a broken record 

i want so bad to make that memory go away to bury it forever 

and there is so much i want to say to you 

but to be honest if i even have to see you 

im just going to really want to hit you 

im sure even then it wont help what i feel 

theses emotions are killing me slowly eating me alive 

taring my heart and my mind to shreds 

i want so bad to be in your arms again 

huh but because of her i’ll never get that chance 

but do i really want it this is just a little taste 

of the pain you can cause me

i dont think i want a full douse of what you can do 

i try to keep my mind and myself busy but it just doesn’t work 

thoughts of you creep into my head 

i wish i didnt have emotions